Becoming

A few days ago, I was looking for a particular photograph when I came across a picture of me that a friend took while we were on a bike ride last May. I audibly gasped when I saw it because it is a terrible picture of me. I look so fat in it. I’m a fatty on a bike.

Now, I know that people are not just their bodies, I know that my husband, children and friends loved me unconditionally, and I know that I was still a valuable person with talents to share with the world. I know.

But here’s what else I know:
If I saw someone I hadn’t seen in a while, my first inclination was to avoid them because I don’t want them to see how fat I’ve gotten.
Whenever I participated in an organized bike ride, I was sure the other riders were thinking, What is SHE doing here?
When I had photo shoots, I worried that the clients wouldn’t take me seriously because I was frumpy and fat.
I felt tired and weak.
I didn’t like how I felt, physically or mentally.

Then one day I saw on Facebook that a gym was giving away ten trial memberships to try their bootcamp for 12 weeks. I entered, because, why not? I’d tried everything else. (HCG? Yes! Lost 15 then gained it all back plus 8 more bonus pounds! Yay!).
I got picked for the opportunity to try this gym called Firehouse Fitness and even though I knew a few people who were members, I was nervous. Really nervous.
After my first workout, I came home and sat on the floor for two hours. I was spent. The next day, I could barely walk. I couldn’t lift my arms above my head and it hurt my abs to cut up a cantaloupe. Everything hurt. I was told that the best way to help myself was to workout again to get rid of the stiffness. So I did. It helped a little but I was sore everywhere for about two weeks.

I wondered why anyone would choose to do this regularly. It was brutal! But, I had committed to the 12 weeks so I kept going at least three times a week. For two months I ate smart, only ate dessert on Sundays and I didn’t lose a pound. Instead, I gained something better. I felt myself getting stronger. I could do things that on my first workout, I had found impossible. Every day that I would workout, my mood was so much better. It was wonderful, and I was hooked.

After the first two months, I did begin to drop weight. As of today, I am down 40 pounds. I still have more to go, but there’s no stopping me because I feel awesome!

I went on a bike ride with a friend today and had her snap a photo of me so I could compare it to the one from last May. I am in no way thinking I look like a supermodel, but I am so happy with my progress.

And here’s something else I know: I feel more like myself than I have in years.

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http://airjordansforsale.mex.tl/Friday June 03, 2016 - 6:26 pm

I would like to thank you for the effort you have put into publishing this post. In fact your writing has me wanting to begin my own blog now. Thanks again for taking the time to put this online.

lORIMonday March 04, 2013 - 8:03 am

You are amazing and you look beyond fabulous!! Way to go!

RachelSunday March 03, 2013 - 8:29 am

You look fantastic! Inspiring. I need to be more committed to getting up and getting that workout in each day. 40 is just days away… and I am feeling it :)

SylviaSaturday March 02, 2013 - 9:04 pm

My HERO!! Way to go!!! So proud of you!! My inspiration, too!! We an do this, right??

JULIENESaturday March 02, 2013 - 8:11 pm

YOU LOOK GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

CherylSaturday March 02, 2013 - 7:55 pm

Yeah!! You are awesome and I’m envious of your bike riding. One day! Brad has told me its not the number on the scale that is sexy but the way a woman talks and feels about herself. I’ve been working hard on this.

Sarah BSaturday March 02, 2013 - 6:24 pm

You go girl!!! I am one of your many admirers who has always thought you are beautiful. That being said, it is no doubt invigorating to lose some extra pounds! It’s such hard work! You are Kelly Anne, you can do anything!!!

heidiSaturday March 02, 2013 - 5:42 pm

Kelly,
You look AMAZING!! I am so proud of you, you have worked really hard to get that awesme body!!Grrrrr!

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