…but getting better
Thank you, thank you for all of the kind words and acts of support over the past few days. I am touched by the fact that even if people are not dog lovers themselves, they recognized how important to our family Molly was and have been so sweet to us.
I knew it was going to happen. Not that she was sick or anything, but about a week ago one night, I was on the floor loving on her and the thought came into my head that she is going to die soon. I got a bit choked up thinking about it, but I said a little prayer that it could be just a simple, quick thing…that it wouldn’t be something too heartbreaking or tragic. But, then I went back to normal life and put the thought in the back of my mind.
On New Year’s Eve, when I realized that something was wrong, it was about 4:30am and I laid with her and cried and tried to take the prayer back. I said, “Not now. Not yet. I’m not ready.”
But here we are anyway.
We are all heartbroken over here. Sad, missing her. And I keep expecting her to be in certain places, doing her usual things. I keep thinking I will see her on her bed, or see her face outside the deck door waiting to be let in. And in the next second when I remember, my heart breaks all over again.
But, it gets better everyday. Today is better than yesterday, and yesterday was better than the day before that.
And so it goes.
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time does truly heal all wounds. be at peace.
Loosing a pet is so painful, especially when they’re not a pet at all but a four legged member of your family! We lost Goliath (our giant yellow lab who had a huge heart and 4 giant paws to match his enormous body frame.) a little over a year ago. He’s buried out in front near the road under the ash trees. I went to his grave every night for a month and cried like a baby. I’m sure he was half human, otherwise how could I have missed him so. Will Rogers said, “If there are no dogs in Heaven then I want to go where they go!” I agree! Just a couple of months ago we got a new dog “Geronimo.” (another yellow lab) He’s a Sportsman’s Warehouse parking lot puppy. I made the mistake of taking Deserey birthday shopping, we never made it in the store. I found out the other day from my vet my yellow lab is half blood hound. That explains the long ears and why he runs like a camel! I tell him everyday he has some big paws to fill and I cry when I accidentally call him Goliath. Every little stupid thing he does though he’s winning my heart. I just look Heavenward and say “You did this to me didn’t you Goliath!” I know what’s coming but down the road several years from now when his eyes grow gray, but once you’ve loved a dog, you can’t be without one. I’m so sorry to hear about your great loss. A fellow dog lover – Faye
I am facing your pain.. I have cats ages 14, 13, 11, & 8 and my dog who is 6. I talk to Fog my 14 y/o cat all the time, telling him you do not have my permission to leave me, EVER. I think about what may happen when he and the rest pass. I cry, but realize they are with me now and are making my life complete. I lose a cat several years ago. I was tramuatized. I think of that crazy cat daily! They never leave your heart. You just have to remember they love you as much as you love them!!!! Hugs from Cat and all my four legged children
I know how you all feel pets become part of the family, and it’s hard when they go. If any of you need a good licking, or hug just come on over. Tank loves to hug people, and both he and Cricket will lick you to death.
We love you guys and are sorry for your loss.
You are loved! Heavenly Father knew this would be particularly hard for your family, especially you and so he gave a little warning…some prep time. I know how much you all loved Molly and my heart has been aching for you since I read your “Sad.” post. It is inevitable that life gives and takes away in it’s circle of existence. It is a beautiful process but painful at times. You remain in my thoughts. I wish there was some comfort I could give but as you are discovering…time heals.
What a lucky dog to have had a loving family.
Kelly, sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I’m so sorry Kelly! You can tell from your posts how much you loved Molly! She was lucky to have you! Maybe she is in heaven running around with Amber’s Hewey right now!!
*hugs*
So sorry to hear about your dog. I know exactly how you feel. I also bought my Lady dog when I was pregnant with my first child. She was the cutest darned puppy – our first child, really. I’d gone up to get a dog at the pound (that place made me cry – all of them penned up like that…I digress), but the only puppies they had, I was told, wouldn’t be good around kids. So, as I was driving home I stumbled across a pet store I’d never noticed before and decided to go in. They had some chow pups and one cute little “mutt”. $35 bucks and she was the best dog I’ve ever known. She protected my daughter like a big sister and I always told my husband that if Lady had really been a lady, she’d have given me a run for my money for his affections.
Sadly she died of cancer, just a few months after her 10th bday. That was a few years ago and I still miss her. We all do. Sorry to go on and on – but my heart goes out to you. There’s nothing quite like the unconditional love of a good dog.
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